Escape

I was recently talking with a good friend of mine about life and I told her about how I'd love to return to Hume because that's where I have heard God the clearest. She asked me why I don't hear God as much here. I said that I'm distracted here and that my stay at Hume had very little TV, video games, music, and so on. We have had a previous conversation about video games before and during the course of that conversation she referred to video games as my "escape" and my retreat. I said that because I view them as a way for my brain to shut off and relax. But she used the term "escape" and that specifically stuck out to me.

Recently God has been growing me in the area of emotional health through men such as Andy Rodgers. I am passive aggressive in that I often times do not address what is going on in my head and rather I dwell on it. Often times it also becomes a much bigger deal than it should ever be. I would escape from what happens until it explodes.

Through conversations with Andy I have been addressing things as they happen more often than not, but I'm still growing. However when she used "escape" it made me wonder am I really dealing with it? Or did I just change how I escape from life?

I now believe that video games are a serious idol and hinderance in my life. We'll see what happens.